The Juggle for Time

To be perfectly honest, I do not have enough time in the day for everything I need to do in this placement. I have to first and foremost be present and active in the community, that is a given. But the hardship lies in undertaking this while juggling my own research, researching the theories behind the role my community has given me (namely sustainable agricultural development) and stay on top of current discourse concerning oil resistance. I am not very familiar with sustainable agriculture in the community context. I have grown up with it being around me in the city or in the global North framework, but not in the theories behind its practice in the global South. Because of this, I am having to do extra research. I also have been failing at keeping up with the discourse on oil resistance. These four things I am trying to juggle are taking a toll, and I often spend many hours in my room reading and writing. With so many important things on the go, I am left thinking that I honestly do not have enough time in the day. It also leaves me with a sense of guilt for not lazing around with my family on a Sunday, or with a general feeling that I am just not doing enough. I have just under 6 weeks left in my community and still have so much left to accomplish. It is 2 months today that my final 40-page paper has to be handed in documenting my experiences and my research. I have many questions still unanswered and not enough time in the day to do everything I need to do... I suppose this is a brief glimpse into my future if I decide I want to be a researcher. It also makes me thing that those who can balance this many things well really does have a gift, one that I am trying fruitlessly to learn.